I always thought that when the kids grow up and are out of the home. I will finally have time to muster up my orgaization, and have my home in perfect order, a dream I’ve had for 15 years. But my dream didn’t happen. My habits are in my psyche, and although I’ve pursued methods through the year, or the easiest way to get the job of housework done efficiently, no method has ever stuck… so I want to change my ways after reading books about organizing, fix and paint everything and for once be on top.

Do you know, I’ve been in charge of my own home for 25 years and aside from occasional hints to make certain household chores easier, while coffee klatching with other mothers, and our sharing and complaining, nobody has ever confessed in depth, that there’s a difference between cleanie and being messy housekeepers. And i know I was different from the cleanies, but as my self esteem was always on the verge of bottoming out, it was so personal, I coudn’t share it with anyone.. but accept the endless treadmill of housework. And, i longed so to make it easier, but I didn’t know how.